The programs director at the jail, who, traditionally, sometimes does not reply to my emails regarding scheduling for weeks at at time, emailed me this today: "Hi Emily. Did I hear right that you're pregnant?"
No need to be defensive. It is what it is.
Introduction to a Food Diary
February 5, 2010
5 am. a handful of dry Kashi Golean, 2 squares sugared ginger
9:15 am. bowl of Golean with about a cup of 2% milk
10:30 am. cup of Cumby's dark roast coffee with 2 tbsps cream, 1 tsp sugar
12:15 pm 2/3 can tuna with 2 tbsps mayo & chopped yellow onion on 13 or so garden herb triscuits with 2 oz. monterey jack cheese, melted. A couple handfuls Lay's potato chips. 1 large piece of pepperidge farm frozen chocolate frosted cake, 1 cup vanilla frozen yogurt, 5 sl. dried mango, 8 squares sugared ginger
5 pm. 2 bowls of casserole made of whole grain Kraft cheesy mac, fried ground turkey w/ bread cumbs and sauteed onions, oiled & salted baked sweet potato chunks, nutritional yeast. Buttercrunch chocolate donut hole. Trix yogurt, 2 squares sugared ginger.
11 pm. Hardboiled egg with salt & cayenne. 2 large bowls of Golean, Cheerios, & Wheat Chex with a cup or two 2% milk. Large apple. Large orange. 2 or 3 oz. of baked chicken thigh. 3 squares sugared ginger.
February 6
4 am. Handful dry Kashi Golean
[Dream of secret lover, feeding nutritional bars in lieu of food to a young handicapped boy, but he was neglecting him, we were this close to kissing the whole time; I was so high on marijuana my tongue could not move in my head and I thought to myself in a flash, I am just like my mother, and then I thought, and my child will be just like me, and it was frightening but also, somehow, relieving]
8 am. Handful dry Kashi Golean.
10:15 am. 1 cup Dark roast Cumby's coffee, cr. & sug
[absolute fit because future-babydaddy was lovingly creating himself a breakfast sandwich. Tupperware smashed. after a couple false starts, fut-bd left in a huff, leaving me two steaming plates of food.]
12:15 pm. 3 slices bacon, 1 scrambled egg, 1 chicken thigh [this mixing of adult & fetus ought to be unkosher] w/ skin mostly extricated, 1 cup of a brown rice/black bean/onion/canola oil/cayenne, garlic powder cumin etc. spiced stir fry. 1/2 buttered whole grain bagel. 1 large slice Pepperidge farm frozen chocolate cake, [cell phone stopped working & many attempts amidst frantic eating hovering on the stool were made to remove battery with pair of tweezers], 1 large scoop or maybe 3 of vanilla frozen yogurt/ice cream Edy's blend [which tastes like chemicals and not in a good way]
3 pm. 4 garden herb triscuits with 2 TBSPS tuna salad (tuna, mayo, cayenne, paprika, diced yellow onion)
5:40 pm. [Free supper at St. Mark's. My placemat was dirty and there was a bottle of dish soap on the table. The preemy looking guy at the table next to mine and sitting directly next to me but with a small gap between us because of the different table thing, spilled flamboyantly his coffee. I was getting fed up with all this, and the butter swiped while I was still eating a roll, until I was given, free of charge, a large container of frozen homemade chicken soup, 12 Dannon strawberry banana yogurts and an excellent loaf of Hannaford whole wheat bread, as well as kifed 5 or 6 sticky homemade fudge brownies from the tables] Shepheard's pie with round beef green peas & white potato. 1 roll with TBSP butter. 1 large brownie, 1/2 strawberry banana yogurt [split it].
6:15 pm ish. 1 lg apple, 3 sugared ginger squares.
9:30 pm. 1 garden herb triscuit with large scoop tuna salad [previously described] "pizza" flavoried veggie burger with ketchup and 3 bread & butter pickles, several bowls of popcorn with salt, melted butter, a dash of cayenne, and shittons of nutritional yeast. Sugared ginger square.
11 pm. Greasiness, a couple slices of bacon and a scrambled egg. 1/2 buttered bagel. Hardboiled egg with salt and cayenne. Bowl of vanilla frozen yogurt.
11:35 pm. [at Walmart] 8 Crybaby candies. [I did not like them]
February 7
7 am. Handful dry Golean Kashi.
10:30 am. Large bowl of Cheerios, Golean, & wheat Chex with a cup or two of 2% milk.
1:30 pm. [with Eli] Small plate of white spaghetti, mix of thin (spaghettini, is it?) and regualar with oregano, a bit of corn oil, salt & pepper and onion powder; Ragu's premade sauce and several tbsps parmesan cheese. Orange and delicious; memories of childhood.
5:50 pm. [Listening to NPR on the small cassette player] 1 cup of brown rice stirfried in oil with black beans, onions, the usual spices. 1 large plate of deep fried Chinese "orange chicken, a couple cups of pork fried rice, 1/2 an egg role, 1/2 cup steamed chopped broccoli (rather bland). The Chinese food was from Water Street and the tiny restaraunt was all smoky with some vent problem and the door propped open when I got there; everything except the egg roll was made without MSG. Though I ate the food compulsively and as though it were a guilty pleasure indeed, it tasted rather off. The chicken was for the most part stringy and tough (even now, however, I fantasize about it).
6:30 pm. 1 large red apple. 1 piece of Pepperidge farm chocolate cake, 1 large brownie left over from the dinner, cup of vanilla frozen yogurt.
11 pm. 1 bowl of Oatmeal ("Quick" kind) w. 1/2 a red apple, chopped, a lil brown sugar and butter. 1/2 an orange, a Trix yogurt.
TODAY
4 am handful Golean Kashi
10:30 am 2 bowls Cheerios & Golean Kashi with a cup or two 2% milk.
11 am 1 cup Cumby's dark roast coffee with cream and sugar.
12:30 pm. 2/3 cup of stir fried brown rice with black beans oils onions bla bla etc. A couple pieces of the infamous and dreaded pollo anaranjada. another "pizza"-flavored veggie burger, rather gross really. 1/2 a red apple.
4 pm 2 trix yogurt
[hour long walk in the cold. a glimpse of the one-time lover from the bar, the tall heavyset aspiring skinhead. wandering around eco Hannaford for nearly an hour]
6 pm. Large plate of salad: red leaf lettuce, baby carrots, cucumber, italian croutons, and red onion with creamy parm dressing. 1 bowl of the chicken soup (chicken, red potato, carrot, onion, spinach] from the folks at St. Mark's, grilled cheese (monterey jack & cheddar) with bacon on whole wheat Hannaford bread fried in butter, with garlic powder. 1 large slice of the same old cake, 1 large brownie, 2/3 cup of neopolitan Hannaford Ice cream, a bunch of whipped cream, a red apple, several squares of sugared ginger... It was very delicious, with NPR on in the back ground.. but the red onion was so pungent it burned and is still affecting my mouth...
& there will be more eating tonight, of course
