It's time to start giving the blogs titles which are at least vaguely related to the content. It's best when whimsy is grounded in reality. Otherwise it's just the rantings of a robot/smarterchild defunkto/a parrot four dozen genius monkeys locked in a room cannot be Shakespeare, at his most spunky
I've been reading the Psalms. "Why do you stand afar off, o Lord? / Why do you hide in times of trouble" (Psalm 10)
I am far too obsessed with the delusion of trying to control so much which is out of my reach.
I am worrying about Mercury Retrograde, and it strikes me that my astrology "hobby" may be doing more harm than good, if this is what it's coming to. I'm worrying because a. I'm traveling, most likely Monday; and b. my special friend said some very commital things, unprompted, which excited me, but then I started doing - I won't call it research - netsurfing on Mercury rx, which we entered at 6 am and are in until January 15 (and I gotta get home somehow, people; this influence affects travel and communication the most... last year on January 12th I traveled during one of these: holy f*ck, is all I can say). I just want to keep the darkness moving out and stop worrying, because, as one astrology guru wrote in her online advice column, in response to some lamentation about marrying during a void of course moon:
"25 · Molly · 25 March 2009
Hi Kate— I don’t know of any way to change it once it is done. You just have to let it go and see where life takes you. My sister got married with the Moon v/c. She & her husband are doing fine. Don’t worry about it, because worrying can put negativity out there, and we don’t want that. Just trust that it happened when it was supposed to. Congratulations & best wishes."
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In happier news: I was very productive today. I finished the mittens! with a lot of help from stepsister A., and bustled about the house with her; I gutted and cleaned a huge turkey, did dishes and hung laundry (the household has a washer but the dryer is broken, and they love to be frugal and industrious, making homemade bread and soymilk and all kinds of things... and who can hold that gainst them? It's really very comfortable and beautiful here, and it is nice to be busy with "real" work), chopped vegetables for soup. I like to work, especially next to A. Hopefully my heavy mood will pass. The Lord is good.
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Also, though each individual is effected differently, we're all in astrological transits together. And if Jesus could stop a storm, I'm pretty sure he can stop some planet that merely LOOKS like it's going backwards from effing my (by which I mean our, all us) life/lives up.
So, yeah. Let's keep on keepin on like the King said. These bloody things, mercury retrograde periods that is, happen 3 or 4 times a year and stay for weeks. It's no way to spend a life; I have more interesting things to study. Like Latin, Spanish, and theology. May have dropped the ball on the guitar, though it is not, I repeat, it is NOT, too late...
